February 2012
18 posts
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this sums up my recollection of giselle’s birthday.
what i would give for this to happen tonight
while i'm at it
and i’m fucking distracted by A JOB. which is NOT why i’m here and why the fuck would i be wasting my energy on caring about something that is so ridiculously stupid. i’m in NEW YORK to fucking LEARN how to ACT. so fuck off pedro. i fucking hate you right back. sorry i can’t pack orders as quickly as the cute japanese girl who is now dancing in san fransisco. fuck you....
i feel very anxious like i am on the verge of a nervous break down the only thoughts that have been running through my head are negative ones and include i am not fearless who do i think i am and they remind me of how i was before i started school and that horrifies me because i’ve grown so much so why am i thinking that now is it because i’m not actually good? i feel like i’m...
I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE I’M NOT HOMESICK BECAUSE I’M DOING REALLY WELL IN SCHOOL AND I’M STARTING TO LIKE WHEN I WORK AND I GOT A SECOND JOB AT A FUCKING ADORABLE BAKERY WHERE THE MANAGER DOESN’T GIVE A FUCK AND SAYS CUNT EVERY 5 SECONDS AND I GET TO FROST CUPCAKES BUT I ALSO HAVE A BALANCING JOB AT A MACROBIOTIC PLACE WHERE I GET FREE HEALTHY FOOD AND GOOD MONEY SO I CAN...
at 558 am calvin's alarm goes off. it wakes us both up. we are delirious from lack of sleep. calvin moans, i get up to go pee.
calvin: UGH.
me: it's so dark.
calvin: i can't see shit.
me: i can't teach yet.
calvin: I CAN'T SEE CHAD!
what do i do to my hair i’m bored
interesting fact
i hold my breath whenever i am feeling a negative emotion.
alec baldwin came and ate where i work tonight. i heard him talk and was 4 feet away from him. up your butt.
text
me: you almost home turkey crunch?
cal: ya! i am! ha! god you're such a fudgepackin dildo.
WatchAugust 2011-January 2012
i’m absolutely horrified of how happy i’ve been for the past 36 hours.